Spartakiss Nafakie

sexy and free

2012-02-12T23:29:00.001+08:00

HELLO. Went to madrasah today. Laughed a lot and learned a lot of stuff. Learned the hikmah of saying 'Bismillah hirahman nirrahim' in everything we do. I have the best Ustaz on Earth. Gonna get him something lovely on teachers day:) I mean it this time:) HEHE..

Got home. Bathed and ate. After that I slept till 630pm. Didn't want to miss Asar so i woke up straight and prayed. Felt good. And then i ate again and I used the laptop till now. HAHA. NO LIFE. Boring sunday. But oh well,I needed some alone time. Currently BBM-ing with Fatin now ( @fatinnbk) and texting Dassyali (@Dasslazy) Oh yeah. K bye.

Can't wait for tmr. Swimming with Koh Min,Jia Yuan and Winnie at Jurong East Complex and then Sushi at Clementi with them and meeting Atikah. I'll just order a drink since i don't eat and hate sushi. LOLLLLL. And then off to TOWN to search for Jarren's gift:)

Goodbye.

I'll move the fuck on.

LEGGO

2012-02-11T23:59:00.000+08:00

HELLO. Today I went to Malaysia nothing much though. HAHA. Bought a few stuff. A moisturiser,Revlon lip butter and an Almond Body Scrub. Oh yeahhhh. Watched Chronicles for the 2nd time with my family and had a great time. Yeay. Can't wait for tmr.. RELIGIOUS CLASS. Peace and serenity. Amin. Hehe. Adios.

Foster the people

2012-02-09T01:04:00.001+08:00

Went to meet my friends for lunch at IMM. Ate at Sreats. It is so delicious. They serve delicious hong kong food there and the milk tea there.... YOU GUYS IT AMAZING. Go get your lunch there one day. With your family or friends. JUST GO. You wont regret trust me,:)

After that we suddenly decided to go to West Coast Park to have fun and enjoy ourselves. Played most of the stuff there and I think most of us got tanned. Damn it. Oh well. Haha. I swear to God we enjoyed ourselves and we relived our childhood moments. Fell down a couple of times and felt like puking a couple of times but it was a ll worth it. Went to Macdonalds to chillax and get ourselves some drink and then we met Fard at JP.

Went to Macd to have dinner and talk and talk and did some stupid stuff there. HEHE. But it was hilarious .When we were waiting for the bus at the interchange we bumped into Malin. Lucky us:) Yeay.

Goodbye.

Every second is a highlight. When we touch don't ever let me go-Domino

Oh and yeah. Bumped into Elena and Amirul at Koi. So long never see them. And the first thing he asked is "where is my present?" And i was like -...- WHERE'S MY PRESENT? HAHAHAHA. K.

Buhbye. Damn you're at camp. Oh well. HAHAHA. K.

HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAHHA.K.

Shane G Boa

2012-02-08T00:27:00.000+08:00

I was so darn shocked when I saw that I got a DM from someone (BB notification) and when I opened it. I WAS LIKE.... *Faints* The most cutest guy on Earth actually DMed me. I WAS LIKE.... OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG. Save me.. Haha. Super duper shocked. I am so ready to start with this mini project....Hmmm,I wonder what I'll actually do. Oh yeah. Haha. Just sharing my happiness. He is the only Youtube star which actually replied all my tweets to him. AND NOW A DM!? Yeay me. Haha. Alrighty. BYEBYE.

Bandage My heart

2012-02-08T00:17:00.001+08:00

Today I am lazy to blog with my laptop. So I am just gonna blog with my iPod. So basically what happened today was that we (me,kohmin and Jiayuan) went over to Winnie's house to sign some contract thingyyyy.

After that we watched modern family and laughed my ass off. It is so damn funny. Fard came over half way through cause she had netball tryouts in school:)

Went back to the past just now with the help of Facebook and blogger hahah! Laughed our as off stalking people. Oh well. It was fun;)and on my way home I bumped into izzat and fuck no I was wearing he same pants that I wore the last time I bumped into him. So embarrassing!!! Haha!

Oh well YouTube-ing now. Bye!!!

Solo tonight

2012-02-07T00:03:00.000+08:00

Went to support the soccer dudes today. The weather today was like.... WEIRD.

Oh well. Laughed a lot too. Had a lot of fun. Hehe. Alriighty goodnight.

I've had enough.

I can't let go.

Mister R

2012-02-06T00:09:00.000+08:00

Sorry I didnt blog yesterday. I swear I wasn't myself. I was so.... NOT ME. Oh well.

Went to religious class today and it totally changed me. Alhamdulillah. I felt so peaceful. I felt so calm. I felt so relaxed. If only madrasah can go on and on. I'll be the happiest girl on Earth. But oh well. I only have madrasah on Sunday and I love my Ustaz so much. Never fails to make the class laugh. And bad news. Shafawati quitting madrasah already:( Haish. Oh well. What to do. Goodluck babe;)

Anw I did a cover on For the love of a daughter by Demi. Here's the video:)

If this was a movie you'd be here right now

2012-02-04T00:47:00.001+08:00

ME IN STARWARS

ME AND MUSSY

ME AND THOMAS

ME AND WINNIE

ME AND KOHMIN(BABY)

2nd February.

Went to meet up with Atikah,Jiayuan,Kohmin and Winnie for some job interview at IMM(Subway). But the job is completely RETARDED,i swear to God. We have to pay to work. And for fucks sake...I am 17 with no CASH. So fuck off you rich people. Oh well. After that we went over to Bagus to have lunch. The NASI PADANG there was so fucksome. Yeah man. HAHA. TASTY.

After that we went over to Bukit Batok..to catch The Chronicles? yeah... It was okay. The movie reminded me of me cause i keep filming almost everywhere I go.

#NP One thing-One Direction

"You keep making me weak..Frozen and can't breathe"

After that I lepaked(slacked) with Pai and like 9 other guys. I know most of them. LUCKY ME. I hated home. Didnt want to go home.. So i stayed till 1145pm and then I made my way home. Laughed so much there.

3rd February

#NP Papa dont preach-GLEE

Went over to sch to meet Izza,Mia and Mai and after that we headed to Jurong West Stadium to support B' Div 2012. They lost... But oh well... They did a good job:) HEHE. Yeah. Nothing much. Today kinda sucked. And yeah. ACCOMPLISHMENT! I fast for one day. YEAY me. Meeting my friends tmr. YEAY. Going to the flee tmr:) Ca't wait. BYE.

The moment when he turns around. And you caught him.

And my heart said,

"I miss you"

A Thousand Years

2012-02-01T21:10:00.000+08:00

Went to support the B Div's game today. They won Hill Grove Secondary. 22-12. Well done girls! Had a great time there. But I should have gone home straight after that. Haish. Really. Anyways.. Today was a great day in the morning. But more towards the afternoon it was sort of RUINED and fucked up at night. Which is right now. Yeah. Haish. I really feel like SHAITE(Shit) right now. Oh well. #whattodo

How can I move on when I'm still in love with you?

11.14

2012-01-31T23:25:00.000+08:00

All time favourite singer who speaks clearly how I feel.

Today woke up at 2pm and had a strong feeling that today is going to be a bad day. But oh well. Haish. It turned out right.

I feel so down today. I am not going to tell anyone about my problems and my feelings and all. Fuck it. I am too nice right? Yeah I'll fuck off. Not trying to be an attention seeker. But this is REALLY how I feel. Anw,heading to school tmr to support my beloved netballers. Yeay me. And staying over for trg too:)

A little peace of Heaven

2012-01-30T23:10:00.000+08:00

I miss school so much. Haish.

And also family outings:(

Oh well. Anw,today me,Atikah and Jia Yuan went to Ayer Rajah to have lunch. It was delicious. Craved for sugarcane juice and I got it. YEAY ME. Happy girl. HAHA. And yes we got lost twice today. Well it was good work out walking round in circles? I guess?(trying to be optimistic here).

After that we went to West Coast Park and did loads of stuff like climbing the 'Pyramid' till we reached the top,tried out the flying fox and spin in some alien stuff. I swear to God I walked around feeling sick after that. Super GIDDY. And yeah. Took the bus back to Clementi after chillax-ing at Macdonalds there. And we went our separate ways.

Overall...I enjoyed my day today.

OH AND I AM POSTED TO #NGEEANNPOLY taking up the Landscape Architecture and Horticulture course(IDK how many times i typed that out today) Yeah. Kinda glad. And Koh Min suggested that me and Jia Yuan well those in Ngee Ann in our clique should take uo the French smthhh CCA. Its gonna be sooo coooll. HEHE. Can't wait.

Now I have to shop for Poly stuff and I am fucking JOBLESS. #depressedmodeon

HEHE,adios.

I hate hurting people cause I know how it feels. I hate making people feel like an idiot cause I know how it feels. I hate making people wait cause I know how it feels. I hate making people have false hopes cause I know how it feels. So everything I do...There's a reason. Sometimes I am too friendly and too open I guess? I'm sorry to whoever it may concern.

Back to December

2012-01-29T23:45:00.001+08:00

HELLO. Had a hell lots of fun today with my 4E classmates at Miss N's wedding. Saw some ex-WWdians too,HEHE. Oh well. Miss N was... Lets just say different. SHE LOOKED SO DAMN DIFFERENT. But it was cool looking at someone close to us getting married. SO HAPPY FOR HER. Almost cried tears of JOY. Awww. HAHA. Oh well.

Anw,we left to eat at IMM in HEELS and DRESS. It was HELL GDI. Oh well,we ate at some Hong Kong place and I ate....

DELICIOUS, I SWEAR TO MY GOD,ALLAH S.W.T. Heheh.

Oh well after that we headed over to Jarren's place and watched TV. We watched stupid shows and laughed our ass off! HAHA. It was really ridiculous lah. We watched Teletubbies. If that is how it's spelled as. LOL. I cannot take it. I laughed like MAD. Because of Dipsy(the Green one) and I realised that Tinky Winky(the Gay one) CANT DANCE. JUST LIKE ME! HEHEHEHEH. Oh well. ALL TIME FAVE IS STILL Po(the red tiny midget) HEHE.

Oh well congratz to Miss N. Love ya xoxo. Love everyone too xoxo.

MWAH MWAH. GOODNIGHT. JAE RESULTS TMR. WISH ME LUCK? NO? K. LOL. BYE.

For the love of a daughter

2012-01-29T00:09:00.000+08:00

Hello there Earthlings. HEHE. So today went over to Mussy's place for tea party. We had delifrance tarts,and such and also muffins and high tea. DELICIOUS. Made our own fries too!!! It was my idea cause I saw some potatoes in the kitchen basket so i suggested to make our own healthy fries. Turned out great but a lil too salty. HAHA! Oh well...

Anw,Miss N's wedding is tmr can't wait to attend it even though we have to do some receptionist job. Oh well. Standard... Everytime teachers got wedding... CONFIRM they'll make us do those stuff. BUT THIS WAS LIKE A MOTHER FUCKING SURPRISE LAH-..- Oh well, CONFIRM alot of EX-WWdians tmr attending the wedding. HEHE. SEXCITED.

Oh yeah. That's it:) Adios.

I don't think I have gotten over you,YET. I hope I'm strong enough to actually let go of you and hold on firmly to what I just said.

OMG

2012-01-28T02:15:00.000+08:00

I really,HONESTLY lost the habit of me blogging already and I have to start doing it again. SO SORRY READERS:(((( I wont let it happen again. ANW,the pictures above is a sneak peek of my Batam Trip photos with my favourite girls. The rest can be seen on my FB page.

http://www.facebook.com/syafiqah.nafisyah?ref=tn_tnmn (MY FB PAGE)

Anw,had a great day today in school watching my girls train.. Met my beloved hockey guys. Missed them so much:) So I took a photo with them:) hehe. Oh and after that went to catch the movie Jack and Jill with Daryl. Laughed my fucking ass off in the theatre. I was the only one whose voice was so DAMN LOUD. Damn it.

ANW. Did vlogs when i was in Batam. Well,here's the vlog for DAY ONE. And please subscribe to my channel. Might be doing some covers soon. AFTER I GAIN MY CONFIDENCE:P HAHHAHAHA-.- K.

Here's the video:)

Well,here's another video of me and my friends in Batam on the last day trying to attempt on doing a cover of someone like you/price tag. HEHE. BUT IT WAS A MAJOR FAIL.

Another video of me in it sort of a haul:) HEHE. Lets say our hau; (Me,Jarren,Weilin and Fard)

Oh and yes I got my hair trimmed and dyed black(blueish black) but the blue is not so obvious. YEAH MAN. HEHE. K bye.

MWAH MWAH.

untouched

2012-01-20T01:20:00.000+08:00

Hello there! Pardon me for not blogging these few days. Was busy with O level results,JPSAE,JAE and stuff. Well lets just say 2012 have been GREAT so far. NO SARCASM THERE. Yeah,each day of 2012....I love my friends even more. And I am glad to have made more friends too. Esp Sarfina. She's such a darling. Hmmmm,I'm going to Batam with Amalina tmr. CANT WAIT. SEXCITED. Shall vlog when I am there if Jarren's sis(Joanne) could sell me the Itouch by tmr..... FINGERS CROSSED. Alright then, I'm off to sleep. Going to school tmr for CNY celebration. Say hi when you see me. ADIOS.

HAPPY NEW YEAR BITCHES

2012-01-02T14:41:00.000+08:00

HEY THERE.Its 2012. I know I'm kinda late but OH WELL. So yeah.

Jarren planned for us sort of a game inspired from the show RUNNING MAN. SO its like a huntttt.... Each of us were located at different MRT stations. Jia Yuan was @ One North (Circle line),Koh Min and Wei Lin @ Boon Lay,Winnie @ Jurong East, Fard @ Redhill, Dot @ Pioneer,Malin @ Chinese Garden and I was located at Bukit Panjang MRT station.

And then we had to look for Malin in Chinese Garden... Blah blah blah. So yeah. Had to AVOID Koh Min and Wei Lin cause they are so called "spy". LOL.

After that we headed to Botanical Gardens to play some sort of GAME. But Wei Lin's team and Koh Min's team created an ALLIANCE to go against Jarren's team. So yeah,we all turned the game around. We hid from him and gave him clues to lead him where we were. LOL. Its was fun,sweated a lot though. OH WELL.

After that headed to FAR EAST PLAZA to have DUNCH(Fard created this word) HAHA. It was DELICIOUS...TASTY AND YUMMMZZ. Spent a hundred plus bucks there. LOL. SPICY INDONESIAN FOOD. HEHE.

After that we shopped around Orchard Road. And the most FUN moment was when we were at Abercrombie & Fitch. Took a polaroid pic with a MUSCULAR GUY. He took my hand and said 'Dont be scared. Its okay' and he placed my hand around his waist and he placed his arm around mine. Goodness I was like :O I COULDN'T BREATHE. LOL.

After that went to shop at MBS and yeah... After shopping,correction.. WINDOW SHOPPING... We boarded 502 and headed to Malin's house. Before that we bought Macdonalds to eat there. And we had the most AWESOMEST countdown i ever had in life. LOVE YOU GUYS SO MUCH.

Oh and yeah. Today is Rizan's birthday, whoop whoop. Happy Birthday dude!!!!:)

HAPPY 2012 EVERYONE.

New Years Eve

2011-12-31T01:41:00.000+08:00

Okay my mum's friend who went to India got this for me and my sista. Okay I look extra Indian. Oh well. I have Indian blood so that's okay I'm guessing? LOL.

Anw,Jarren got a so called treasure hunt tmr. Goodness before countdown. He said we'll be running around. Hope everything turns out well till countdown. I'm sure I'll have fun.

I hate you.

2011-12-29T21:54:00.001+08:00

Hello I didnt really blog about my 16th birthday,so here it goes. We went to have a Karaoke session at Pasir Ris. And Fard faked her leave to Port Dickson and said she couldnt make it to the celebration.
It was FAKE. LOL. They wanted to surprise me.Super duper sweet friends I have. Love them so much. Anw,we bowled after that. Yeay,hehe.

So that->

Is a gift from my aunt,Aunty Wati. She knew I wanted that so much and they got that for me. Such sweet people. Its a shu uemura ?? palette and lipstick.

<- Over here is a Chanel lipstick in no. 56. My dear Jia Yuan got this for me. I didnt know that he would actually get this for me cause during History lesson he always told me that he wanted to get me a Chanel lipstick. AND HE REALLY DID.

That's me with the adorable birthday cake that my best friends surprised me with. I really was touched. I was so shocked. So so touched. I ate two huge slices of the cake. It was delicious. Tasted like brownie. Oh and yeah. The flame from the fire made my cheeks look extra EXTRA chubby,and I dont like it. LOL.

They even surprised me with a 'HAPPY BIRTHDAY' helium balloon. I swear I loved it. Felt good carrying it around, despite the stares that I got from people. I was like. OH WELL,ITS MY BIRTHDAY BITCHES. LOL. Oh and I had fun smacking it into people's faces in the train,walking to the bus stop..at the bowling alley. HAHA.

My adorable friends;L to R; Me,Winnie,Weilin,Kohmin,Jiayuan,Jarren and Fard.

This is a bag Jarren got for me. Its from Raoul. SO DAMN ADORABLE. Its a black leather bag and it has gold buckles at the front. So in love with it. Its heavy though. Oh well, I can work out my arms.... LOL.

I've been carrying it a lot lately. Almost everywhere I go.

All of the presents that I got.

Kwang Hwee got this watch from me. I really want to wear it so bad... BUT I CAN'T:( sadly... Cause there is no battery and I have yet to get it. LOLLL. Shall get it soon. Oh well. HAHHA. I love the whale in the center of the watch. SO CUTE.

OK BYE.

sorry

2011-12-28T15:29:00.000+08:00

I am so sorry that I haven't been blogging nowadays. I've been very busy and I'm very exhausted. So yeah,those on top are just photos from the outing with Kitty Kats on the 26th of December at Marina Barage. We had a picnic. It was awesome. I love them all so much. I have an interview today at 7pm. WISH ME LUCK. Yeay me. Bye.

Mature

2011-12-22T01:01:00.000+08:00

Here's my latest video about the Netball Farewell Party 2011. Enjoy.

Please comment, rate and subscribe. Thanks :)

Anyway today went to Smoochiezz with @izzaturrusyda . I got 2 elf brushes, 1 coastal scents brush and 1 contouring and blush kit from coastal scents. Yeah and headed back home and ever since then I've been pissed and hungry. I think my menses are coming soon. DAMN. But please not on my birthdayyy!!! *fingers crossed*

Tmr gonna go threading. LIKE FINALLY. I wanna look good on my birthday and my cousin's wedding. And maybe getting some stuff for myself. Hmmm, I'll see.

#NP About You Now- Miranda Cosgrove ( I really mean it:( )

Unbroken

2011-12-20T19:18:00.000+08:00

Tonight I'm going to edit the farewell party video. Apparently the video is too long and youtube being a bitch..Didnt allow it to be published. Damn~ So I'm just gong to edit it tonight. Hehhhh. I'm tired. I'm full. And I'm sick of you. Fuck off from my life _|_

Anw this is the wristband i was talking about:)

whoop whoop

2011-12-18T01:59:00.000+08:00

Me and Fard went to support Aliff when he was taking part in the tournament today. Met at 6.25 and the bus came at 7.30am (Y) LOL. Anw,we were surrounded by many tiny minions according to Fard, well I said they were oompa loompas (however they are spelled as) LOL. Alright so here are the pictures.

This is Aliff. He is 14 this year.

The absolutely adorable 13 year old dude beside me name is Pranit. He is fucking tall. Haha.

I wanted to take a photo with him but I was too shy but Fard and Aliff insisted me to so I did. HAHA. Yeay me, and did I say he was adorable. Fuck he's 13 and he's that tall. Share some with Fard pls? HAHA. JK Fard.

Anw,had netball farewell party today. Shall blog about it tmr and I took loads of videos just now. And yeah..Imma compile everything and edit it. And soon it'll be up on youtube. WAIT FOR IT. HEHE. Adios.

Anw,check this out. I was tired and so I slept and Fard took a frigging photo of me. LOLLLL.

Hastala dodo

Best Thing I Never Had

2011-12-16T22:44:00.000+08:00

That my friend is what I call RETRO. Just kidding.

So I wanted to do a cover today.... But it failed. I don't have the guts at all. Haish,sad story. Anw,heading over to Ang Mo Kio tmr to support Aliff. He is having a soccer tournament there. Can't wait. Sexcited. I'm wearing a blue top and blue makeup. As in eyeshadow and all. Not lipstick. LOL. Alright goodbye.

I am pissed. Dad switched off the aircon. I hate Singapore's mother fucking weather. FUCK IT.

2011-12-15T02:37:00.000+08:00

ENJOY! :)

Don't forget to subscribe.

Dance with your Papi

2011-12-15T01:19:00.002+08:00

From the left: Fard,ME,Jarren and Winnie.
Photographer: Thomas (Jia Yuan)

DEAD CRABS

Our Bicycles parked nicely.

Me and Thomas ( Jia Yuan)

So i enjoyed my day a lot today. Took loads of videos and I'm waiting for them to upload on youtube now. And it'll be the first video on my new channel and I'm going to post the video in the next post. Yeah. HEHE.

Meeting Jarren,Fard and the other class committee at Pioneer Mall tmr @ 6pm to discuss about class chalet. CANT WAIT. SEXCITED. Hehe,adios.

I hope your day was as great as mine.

xoxo

Survivor

2011-12-14T01:36:00.000+08:00

I just love how my lips looked like in this picture. And it's Koh Min's twitcon. Awww. HEHE.

I've been missing History lessons so much lately. Especially Mr Kumar and my fellow historians who sits in front and behind me. Well basically my row. HEHE. Haish. ANW, I received the EAGLES Award from school. OMFG, I was so mother fucking happy. HEHEHHEHEHE. Alright then,adios:)

Cant wait to go to East Coast Park tmr with my lovelies. We'll be having a picnic and we'll also be riding bicycles. Yeay,lets hope no one gets injured. HAHA.

Mister R?

Hello Goodbye

2011-12-12T23:37:00.000+08:00

So today after we went to accompany Fard to her interview we headed over to Bugis, Haji Lane. Shopped there for clothes. It's amazing and $$$$$. Saving my money for Batam Trip though. HEHE. So yeah,I only bought one wrist band. Its teal in colour and it has a gold kinda 'thing' on top of it in the middle. I really dont know how to explain it. Shall take a picture soon. Oh and yeah. I'm just kinda lazy to take it out of my caboodle. Yeah. Adios.

I'm sad that mum cancelled the Thailand trip though:( VERY SAD.

Someone like you

2011-12-11T23:55:00.000+08:00

Yesterday had an awesome dream. Hope tonight I dream about the same thing again. HEHE. Well I had this dream about Zayn Malik and Finn (from Glee). My God the dream was fucksome. This is what I get for One Direction-ing and Glee-ing every night. HEHE. But oh well. It felt great when I woke up. Love you Zayn. VERY MUCH. And the best thing, it felt so fucking real. Yeay me.

I've been on a diet and it is like.... NOT WORKING. I have to work out more. Damn it. I really hate sweating. But oh well. I needa lose some fats. Dont judge. I just am not comfortable with the way my body looks esp my boobs. Whoooops. Alright adios:)

You make me feel like a million bucks

2011-12-11T22:19:00.000+08:00

I can't wait for Christmas. HEHE. I am in love with Cimorelli now. Yeay, I was in love but right now..Their original song is WHOA. Kudos Cimorelli.. Anw,tmr heading over to Harboufrant to accompany Fard to her job interview. But before that heading oveIr to Winnie's to find a job. Yeay us. HEHE. I swear to God I am fucking lazy to work but oh well. Adios:)

Hot Chelle Rae

2011-12-10T01:46:00.001+08:00

Yes you've got that one thing but I'm tired of this already. Eff yeah☺

#NP I like it like that

Today went to collect our bonus and guess what they pissed us off even further god damn it. Oh well,after that went for lunch and we shopped for Fard's Dr Martens. Took a video of it. Shall upload it???Hmmm,I'll think about it. So yeah,after that I got my birthday T-shirt and I absolutely love it. It's from H&M. Just a simple printed tee that I am nuts about. HEHE. Alright.

After that we headed to Clementi to get Koi and I bought stuff at Papermarket to get Faisal and Audrey their stuff. Yeah. HEHE. Alright after that made our way home. While I meet my mum and sis at Causeway Point. Had dinner with Aunty Wati,Apit and Fadhil. Had an awesome time. Missed them so much and the feeling of meeting them again is AWESOME. Hehe. Oh and another thing,I just realised that Fadhil is quite goodlooking for a 13 year old dude. His eyelashes are like extremely long. LONGER than mine. Whoooooo,reminds me of Zayn. HEHE. Alright,imma go hit the hay. Adios.

x☺x☺

The Reason

2011-12-08T23:42:00.000+08:00

You are one friend that I dont want to keep in my life. Not that you are not a good friend. But you hurt me too much bro. Its just stupid. Having you in my life cause me pain. 2012 we wont be seeing each other anymore, we'll be going our seperate ways. You'll be living your life and I'll be living mine. Good luck. I'll miss you very much. You were once a part of me. Now you're just a memory. I love you very much, but I'm sorry.

GLEE

2011-12-07T18:31:00.001+08:00

Hello today is a pretty boring day. Yeah. Kinda sad,no idea why. Maybe I know why. But my brain refuses me to know. So yeah. I know its weird. But I'm just like that. And Fard and Kwang Hwee are making me much more sexcited for my birthday. BOOHOOYAHAH. HEHE.

One thing. If someone gets me a BOOK yes a BOOOOOK for my birthday,I'll appreciate it. But deep down inside I'll be like... "Bitch,you dont know me dont cha. I DONT READ BOOKS" Except for one,the one Fard bought for me,the make-up book. Yeah. Not trying to be rude. But that's just me,alright. Can't wait to get my pay. Even though its only 320 bucks for 4 days of work. LOL. I'm lazy to work. K gotta GLEE. Adios.

And Zayn I still love you no matter what. HEHE

Red Solo Cup

2011-12-06T22:39:00.000+08:00

#NP Glee Cast-Santa Baby

Well,today I sort of got the feeling of excitement for my birthday celebration with friends and also the Batam trip with friends and the Thailand trip with my family. OMG,can't wait. Talking about can't wait. RIZAN FASTER COME BACK LAH IDIOT. LOL. JIA YUAN TOO! FASTER COME BACK:(((((

I'm hungry,bye.

My current obsession

2011-12-06T18:03:00.000+08:00

Skandar Keynes

If you realised I changed my blog song to- The Call (Regina Spektor). Its a soundtrack from Narnia, Prince Caspian. HEHE. Alright then,adios.

Na na na

2011-12-04T00:21:00.000+08:00

I miss my tall guy here. His name is Gordon. He never fails to make my day when I'm in school. He makes me smile just by the way he waves his arms and shouting/screaming my name,sometimes with a hug too. Miss him very much. Hey Gordon! If you're reading this, I hope I made you smile. HEHE.

I miss school so fucking much. I miss the atmosphere.

xoxo

first time

2011-12-03T17:55:00.000+08:00

this my first time blogging with my blackberry. hehe. hello. so yah. did my aunt's makeup a few minutes ago. and se asked me to do her makeup on her daughter's wedding day too. awesomezzzz. hehe. hope she pays me. whoooops. just kidding:P arighty,had pizza just now. it was FUCKSOME. alright,watching some bollywood show now. I'm off. Adios.

Regret

2011-12-02T21:35:00.000+08:00

Hello. I am bored to death sitting at home. Woke up at 5pm today. Yes I slept #likeacat. Haha. Alright,woke up bathed and a few minutes later....Dad asked me to accompany him to Lot 1 to get sis and bro's school books for next year. So yeah. Ate there too. Had this huge french toast. IT WAS HUGE.

Alright. I'm done. I think my life ever since I'm grounded is the INTERNET.Well,facebook,twitter,tumblr and wellll. BLOG. I love blogging. But still I'm gonna get a 2012 diary for myself. Yeay me..... Adios.

about a girl

2011-12-02T00:02:00.004+08:00

My twitcon and New Youtube channel picture.

Well i deleted my Youtube channel because lets just say I want to start a fresh and I want to change my fucking youtube channel's name but I fucking can't. GuiltyBear10 is just stupid. WHO THE FUCK CAME UP WITH IT?! LOL. It was me. So yeah. Once i uploaded the first video Imma share the link here. Yeay☺

Only Girl In The World

2011-12-01T01:05:00.000+08:00

I am not me. I am different now. I don't know why.

I've been watching WE on MIO these few days and I'm more motivated to go to Singapore Polytechnic to take up Interior Designing course. Yeay me.

I lost a friend today a few minutes ago. Just because I was too over protective of my own brother. Maybe I should start caring less. Cause at the end of the day I wouldn't lose anything at all right? I am sorry. But right now I don't dare to face you.

December is going to be bad. Plus I have menses today. PMS sucks biggie. Alright bye.

Just when I felt like giving up on us,

you turned around and gave me one last hug,

that made everything feel better,

and even then my eyes got wetter,

so confused wanna ask you if you love me,

but i dont wanna seem so weak.

bagaimana?

2011-11-30T00:16:00.005+08:00

Currently missing Kyu Seon who is in Korea right now. He is a Korean dude from 1C 2011 which I facilitated this year along with Amalina and Haniss. Miss him loads. He moved back to Korea on the 27th of July. Missing him. Take care alright? Never fail to make me laugh.

Never felt like this in a very long time. Tears running down my cheeks.

I still remember the time when you told me not to worry or be afraid cause you will always be there for me. But now its all different. I've moved on. But I just miss them..A lot.

Bagaimana harus ku lupakan mu? Ku selalu memikirkan mu.

Ape aku merepek. Bye.

When I try not to think of him(Mister R) I end up thinking about him(Mister A). Syaf you're one stupid girl.

lose my mind

2011-11-29T15:30:00.001+08:00

I feel like shit today. Seriously. Piece of shit,dust,ant,pest etc...

See i just want you to know that you deserve the best you're beautiful.

In your eyes I lost my place

2011-11-29T00:58:00.001+08:00

The sudden feeling of missing you after months;sucks.

Me and Winnie acting like tourists. LOL.

Bimbo Hour.

At the restaurant.

Hello.I know I shouldn't be missing you. God damn it. Just that something reminded me of you just now. But one thing for sure. I don't love you at all. We were once together and that's the end. Yeah.

So today went to meet Fard for Ice-cream @ Wendy's. Interview today cancelled. Lotsa people can't make it so might as well push it to some other time. Had a heart to heart talk then headed to Winnie's. Ate cup noodles cause it was raining and wanted to keep ourselves warm. Yeay.

After that we left for JP to meet Malin at Golden Village to catch Breaking Dawn. And I have to say that... I love the Cullens. Esp... WAIT FOR IT.

CARLISLE CULLEN.

http://twilightsaga.wikia.com/wiki/Carlisle_Cullen

Hehe,had kept my eye on him ever since Twilight. He is just stunning esp with his combed back hair. I have a thing for guys with combed back hair you know. They just look stunning you know. Haha. Oh and yeah,Breaking Dawn was FUCKSOME. Enjoyed it. But I really felt like I paid to watch a porn show. But it was great. Edward and Bella's sex scene was hot. And wtf, I saw Bella's nipples. Ok,too much information Syaf! LOL.

KK,my blackberry's calling for me. Gotta go. BYE. ITS GOTTA BE YOUUUUUU. kk that was #random ADIOS AMIGOS.

Emmett Cullen is kinda cute too you know? Hehe.

WAIT! ONE MORE THING. I LOVE ALICE CULLEN. She is the most adorable lady and extremely feminine vampire in the Cullens. She is just so fucking cute. HEHE. Alright, I'm out. BYE.

Never planned that one day...

2011-11-28T01:37:00.002+08:00

Absolutely.Dashing.Don't.You.Think.So?

Today was the last day of work. GAH. Like finally. Haha. After work went down to City Hall to meet Jarren and Koh Min. After that we boarded the train on the red line to Newton. From there we got into a HUGE misunderstanding with Jia Yuan. Haha,me,Jarren and Koh Min created a scene in the bus. It was hectic? LOL. Wrong choice of words? I suppose.... LOL.

Alrightttyyy. So we had our dinner at Al-Amen? We were laughing like mad there. Really enjoyed myself. After that we ran to an Ice-Cream shop which according to Jarren was nice.. So me,Fard,Jarren,Koh Min and Jia Yuan ran there cos it was late and we were worried that we might miss the last bus. It was impromptu and we are going for an interview tmr for the Ice-Cream shop job offer. Hope all of us gets hired. Along with Winnie and Wei Lin (Bone). HEHE.

Then headed home in 985 alone while they board 157. I loved today. I love my friends. Hugs.

Isn't she lovely

2011-11-25T23:25:00.002+08:00

After the camp rushed home bathe and cabbed down to meet Winnie and Jia Yuan and then we boarded 502 to Town. We looked for Jia Yuan's Jacket and his sister's jacket. Winnie bought shoes so she could use up the voucher. After that we headed to Far East Plaza to eat Nasi Ayam Penyet(Indonesian Food?) I think? So yeah,otw there we bought ice-cream from the motor ice-cream?:/ weird name i gave them. HAHA. So yeah,the 'apek' (old uncle) said that me and Jia Yuan were weird people. And I was like -______- seriously APEK?! haha,but oh well. It was cute though his reaction. I had to pay 20 freaking cents for a plastic cup (Y) LOL.

So yeah,headed to FEP then we ate then we made our way to Ion Orchard to go to Pull And Bear and that was where JY got his Jacket and he got his sister's jacket at New Look. When he asked me to try on his sister's jacket...I looked French,according to Jia Yuan. Hhahaha. Winnie bought boots. She is into heels now. Yeay her. Shall not blog anymore. I'm tired, and there is work tmr. Adios:)

Empire State of Mind

2011-11-25T23:04:00.000+08:00

I miss school real bad.

Yesterday,the C. Division 2008 crashed the netball camp. Which includes me. HAHA,i totally felt welcomed. Juniors were screaming,smiling,cheering. Some were even crying(Atiqah and Haniss) Awwww, so sweet. HEHE.

Enjoyed my night with Fina,Fard,Haniss,Izza,Fatin,Salmiah,Yanti and Hidayah. Slept around 2am. Me,Fina and Haniss listened to MJ12 (Radio station thing). It was funny,scary and yeah the Papi song totallyyyy ruined the 'scary' mood. LOL.

Woke up. Had Breakfast. Then got a surprise attack by Nurul,Atiqah,Fatin and Haniss. Goodness,me and Fard were outnumbered. We lost. We became the victims. Nobody saved us. HAHA,shall post the pictured soon after Fard and Nurul uploaded them. Miss them so much already. *Send hugs and kisses*

C. Division 2008 you guys made a change in my life.

Love you guys so much.

So glad I could relive it again yesterday and today.

Glad to have fun again with Haniss and Fard.

Awww,k I feel like crying. Miss you guys:(

Like A Skyscraper

2011-11-24T00:52:00.000+08:00

Boredom;I love messy tied up hair updos.

I love cereal.

Lastly...I love all my friends. Thank you very much Marion,Kelly and Malin for cheering me up on twitter. And Fard for listening to how i felt just now when i opened up to you. Really made me feel better. I know for sure you guys wont treat me as if i am not there. I dont know what I'd do without you guys. Love you guys so much.

X♥X♥

Life's a climb

2011-11-23T20:10:00.000+08:00

I hate being insulted on stage. Well,maybe not insulted but being treated as if I'm invisible...Like I am not there. Making me feel fucking small. God damn it. I lost my self confidence because of it. I hate the feeling. I cannot take it. Yesterday was the worst that I have felt. Yeah,that's it. Shall blog more later on at night.

Prom

2011-11-23T02:42:00.000+08:00

You don't know a thing about me.

It was prom tonight. Really enjoyed myself. I especially loved being around with my lovelies(Koh Min,Wei Lin,Amalina,Fard,Eiyzy,Jarren,Dot,Jia Yuan and Winnie). They were the one who made this night a night to actually remember. I will cherish every second that we spent together just now. Especially the photoshoot part. HEHE. I realy dont know what to say. I just enjoyed myself just now.

Cabbed home just now. Dear Jia Yuan sponsored my cab. Love you gorg. HEHE. I was really exhausted and my contacts were dry. So yeah,battery running low now. Only 24 minutes left on my laptop.

#NP I'm sexy and I know it.

HEHE. That song reminded me of prom just now. Haish,memories. Took loads of pictures just now. I think? Haha. So yeah. I took pics of myself out of boredom just now. So yeah. HAHA. Adios.

Katy Perry's on replay

2011-11-22T10:55:00.000+08:00

So today's prom. I am sexcited and afraid also. Damn. Oh well I'm gonna enjoy myself. HEHE,till then adios.

Red Hot Chili Peppers

2011-11-18T23:35:00.001+08:00

Tik Tok I want to rock you like the 80's

Hello there. HAHA. That sounded so formal. So moving on. Today headed over to Fard's house to practice our Prom Makeup. Ate Maggie noodles and enjoyed ourselves there. Took lots of videos. Sadly they're in winnie's handphone. Shall upload it soon. GOSH,i have tons of videos to upload. Hang on there alright? Haha. So yeah.

1st day of work tmr @ Punggol. Wish me luck:) And I'm glad we're okay?:) Adios.

Taken

2011-11-18T00:45:00.002+08:00

Went over to Dot's house to practice prom makeup on their faces.So yeah. I'll post the picture down here.

After that we went for a job interview. It was okay. We had to promote some insecticide to the manager? there. It was freaky though. And the place was freaky too. Shall upload the video i took today soon. Talking about videos..I uploaded one today. I'll post the link down here so you can just click on it. ENJOY

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yLOHN1tMuis&feature=g-all&context=G1f861ALTsU1swADAA

The one that got away

2011-11-16T22:09:00.000+08:00

You're my heroine.

Woke up early today to head over to school for Prom Auditions. It was okay and the feedback was okay. As usual my voice is too soft T______T what to do?! I'll try harder. Next rehearsal on Monday in the morning.

Rushed home and meet Jia Yuan and Winnie then we head over town. We went Orchard to shop for Dot's(Dorothy) and Jia Yuan's prom outfit. It was fun! I got myself a leather shoe from new look and a Madonna top from H&M. Love it. Then we ate at Food Opera since Jia Yuan insisted.

When i got home i decided to jog with my brother. So yeah... He tagged along. And that explains the first three photos at the top. Haha. It was really tiring though. I was like EXTREMELY EXHAUSTED after 15 frigging minutes only! LOL.

Oh well. That's it. Adios. Oh and check out my latest video. I think I'll be editing the other one tmr instead. I am too tired.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mIvw36VChDs (Response to 23:59)

So yeah. The day before,the economics students just ended their O's and it was genius me,idea to watch a horror show. But it was worth it. So we catch the Singaporean Horror show,titled 23:59. And yeah. We went straight after their paper. It was fun. And please do subscribe to my channel,it'll mean a lot to me.

Headstrong

2011-11-14T23:34:00.001+08:00

Today was the last day of O levels. Finally,the day has come. Yeay me. But... It does not feel good. I'm gonna miss Westwood Secondary School for sure :( Especially seeing your face around bro. Haish. All those memories in school with my lovelies. But I'm glad most of us going to Ngee Ann. Unless I am going to Singapore Poly to do Interior Designing. Then its buhbye to my friend,haha. Kidding,we'll still meet up...
Someday....Somehow.

Anyway,the Economics students ends their O's tmr. So tmr my plan is to attend band practice in school for Prom Auditions. Hope we'll make it through. And if we don't,it doesn't matter. Cause I hate singing to the crowd. I just suck okay. Yeah, I have low self esteem. And I've chosen my Prom Makeup already. Yeay me. Left with settling other's makeup and I'm done.

We are different now if you didn't realise. It's sad. But what can I do right?☺

Shall keep this short,so... i'm currently listening to Ashley Tisdale's songs. #NP Be Good To Me

xoxo

Photos

2011-11-13T23:08:00.000+08:00

The times that we had,I'll keep like a photograph.

Kaki Gerek

2011-11-13T21:08:00.001+08:00

Woke up late. Rushed down to meet Kaki Gerek:
Fard
Nazrul
Sheikh
Irfan
Nasrul
Dinie

We went to visit Fatin at National Univeristy Hospital. I swear it was fun. We laughed,joke around. It was good seeing Fatin smile despite her being sick. The most epic part was when we left Nazrul behind and we rushed into the lift. We ended up getting lost. When the lift door opened,it was the fucking mortuary. I screamed and ran back. I was originally in front of the door. HAHA. Irfan was scared too. Sheikh was pretending to be fearless. And Fard had to close the door cause no one wanted to. Haish,memories. Good ones. Gonna upload the picture we took later on. Waiting for Nazrul to tag me on fb. Adios.

700th Post

2011-11-12T23:49:00.001+08:00

Had my last tuition lesson with Faisal today. I really am going to miss you dude.You don't know how much you mean to me. Time flies so fast that I didn't even realise it. It's so hard to say goodbye. His text really made me cry real bad. I never shared this type of bond with anyone ever in my life. And I really thank him for shaping me into who I am now. He is my best tuition teacher.

Thank you for teaching me how to believe in myself.

xoxo

River Deep Mountain High

2011-11-11T22:08:00.000+08:00

Hello today I woke up at 1230pm. Amazing right? I know. LOL. So yeah,i watched two movies on MIO after that. And then i went to meet Izza for dinner at Lot 1. She ate some kind of fried fish soup,it was okay? LOL. She told me a lot of stuff. Then headed over to Body Shop to get my eye liner. SO i ended up getting the liquid eyeliner now. And tonight im sleeping at my brother's room on a yoga mat. T___T Save me.

The song i am currently in love now is Rumour has it/someone like you by GLEE. It amazayn. See what I did there?HEHE.

Anw,its been days since I've met you or seen you or text you or talk to you. So you said talk after my O's and its nearing. YEAY. Miss you so damn much? Haha,alrighteys adios. Cant wait to upload all the videos:)

Double Dog Dare Me.

2011-11-10T23:40:00.000+08:00

Results of Boredom.

Okay. So I fucking had a good time today with my lovelies:

Fard

Eiyzati

Wei Lin

Jarren

Winnie

Koh Min

Jia Yuan

So what we did today was that we went to look at ear phones first,cause Winnie wanted to. Afterwards we ate our lunch at KFC. Hmmm,then we shopped at somewhere to get our masks. Custom-made mine. Yeay. Loved it. So yeah,after that walked around Orchard and we got all our prom stuff. Loved to day so much. I dont know what I'd do without them.

xoxo

Holly Oakley

2011-11-09T22:30:00.000+08:00

Tmr is Malay O level's paper. Ooooo. Amazing. I a am like not prepared at all. Gonna leave memory work for tmr. Today my brain is too tired to absorb anything. Gonna head to bed pretty soon.

OHHHH! Tmr heading to town with my friends and we're gonna get our Prom stuff. I'll take a video tmr if possible. Yeay,HAHA, cant wait. Alrighteyy adios.

Gotta Be You

2011-11-09T22:15:00.000+08:00

LOVE

ONE DIRECTION

xoxo

FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK

2011-11-06T22:56:00.000+08:00

WARNING,THIS IS GOING TO BE A VERY FUCKED UP POST.

FUCK YOU. FUCK YOU. FUCK YOU. I'M OUT.

SO YEAH. GOD DAMN IT. I AM JUST SO MOTHERFUCKING PISSED. TO THE MOTHERFUCKING EXTREME. ONLY SOME PEOPLE KNOW WHY, K MAYBE FARD ONLY. URGH,FUCK THIS MOTHERFUCKING BULLSHIT. WHY CANT I JUST BE IN MY LAND OF 'UTOPIA' WHERE EVERYTHING IS JUST WELL WHAT'S THAT WORD.... YES! PERFECT!?

FUCK YOU. FUCK YOU. FUCK YOU.YOU'RE COOL. I'M OUT!

_|_ SUCK ON THIS BITCHES.

Its so hard to accept the fact you're gone forever

2011-11-06T15:01:00.000+08:00

Hari Raya Haji is different without my late grandmother.I miss her so much. Today went badly. I could see disappointment in my dad's eyes. He was disappointed with his own father and his step-mother. I felt bad for my dad. No one cared about him,I'm just glad that he have my mum to do that. Love him to his very last breath.

Arwah Hajjah Kamisah, I miss you so much. I would do anything to see your face again and to talk you. I really miss your presence. The hardest thing to do is say byebye.

#NP Bye bye-Mariah Carey

Freedom

2011-11-05T01:02:00.000+08:00

10 more days to the end of O's. OMFG,the sweet smelling of freedom. I can smell it. SO CLOSE but so far away. HEHE. I can't wait to make-up for my girls for prom. YEAY,cant wait to shop for the masks and make-up since my dress is done. Oh shit,ring and earrings and necklace???!! OH GOD! More chaching. HAISH.

#NP Stereo Hearts

Can't wait to execute our plans for after O's. Sleepovers,Batam,shopping,sentosa,USS.... GOSH. I need to work. HEHE. Alrightyyyy,adios.

8th-History

9th-Human Geography

10th-Mother Tongue

14th-Science Paper 1

OFFICIALLY ENDED O's.

We're better off this way.

2011-11-02T23:23:00.000+08:00

I miss you. I swear I do. But what can I do? Every time that I text you,you seem as if I am annoying you and that you don't wish to talk to me. I don't know why but I just feel like that. If it is true why don't you just tell me so I won't feel like an idiot. I keep telling myself not to give up. I had faith in you. I had faith in myself. I told myself there was still hope. We were okay previously. But now, I don't know what happened between us. Seriously. Maybe it was all a lie? I was always an entertainment to you.1 year I waited. And someone came into your life previously for only a few weeks or maybe 1 month plus and you fell in love with her.

I should give up already. Maybe I should. But all these time waiting and sacrifices...Gone to waste? I still hope for a text for you each day. I keep asking myself,' Would you ever text me if I didn't text you first?'.

I feel like a complete fool and that this is going nowhere but down.Did I do something wrong? Please don't keep me waiting. Please tell me. Adios.

Vas Happening to Us?

2011-10-31T22:32:00.003+08:00

The way you have been treating me nowadays is so cold. I feel so unappreciated. What happened? What's wrong? URGH,i fucking hate O's for making this happen. Everytime i text you,you ask me to study. Fuck,im human. I cant study every second just because i have O's. Its just annoying. Idiot. Can't you see that i really really like you. I entertain your short replies and your cold treatment.

#iloveyou

Spellbound.

2011-10-31T22:24:00.001+08:00

Saw this at Watsons just now and saw some Justin Bieber nail polish by O.P.I. Shall get them after O's and as for the Maybelline BB cream...I'm gonna get it VERY SOON. I mean it. I was spellbound when i saw it. Goodness,it was like a product from heaven. HEHE. The tester was like ice-cream on my hand. FUHLERMAK. KK,adios.

You guys are AmaZayn.

2011-10-31T22:19:00.000+08:00

I love my friends so much.

So yeah,spent my day over at Winnie's. Studied Chemistry there,well it was productive. I learnt some stuff.Oh and we did alot of stupid stuff. HAHA,took some videos too. Shall upload them soon on my Youtube Channel;GuiltyBear10.

They never fail to make me laugh. Its like impossible for me not to laugh when I'm around them. Love them so much. Can't wait to go for Prom. Yeayness. HEHE,shall watch a Suria Show now and carry on with Chemistry after this. Yeay me HAHA,adios amigos.

Mistletoe

2011-10-30T15:01:00.000+08:00

He is the only one who is talking to me in this house.I love him very much. Which reminds me... I have yet get his birthday present. Damn.

Dude,you've pissed me off this few days but i relax only. Seriously. If one day you crossed my line,dude,you're dead. Actually i wont do anything but to leave you like that. Seriously. Enough is enough.

I've had enough.This month sucks real bad. Adios.

Gotta Be You

2011-10-29T00:07:00.000+08:00

HELLO. I am so sorry for not posting much stuff lately. Have been very busy for O levels. Well,I am planning to do a Vlog on my O levels experience and I'm going to post it after the whole of O level's. Which is like 14 November. Yeah man,HEHE. Its nearing people. Dont give up.

So yeah,hey handsome. LOL,that was corny.So yeah,moving on. I MISS YOU. Whoops,kk. Goodnight. Haha. Can't wait to work and save up for One Direction's 2012 tour. Not sure if they're coming to Singapore though. Oh well,I hope they do:D HEHHEHEHE,alright,adios.

Shall tumblr while listening to some music. Currently #NP Lose my mind- The Wanted

Pretending

2011-10-25T02:29:00.000+08:00

Will we ever say the words we're feeling?

Insecure don't know what for

2011-10-23T22:55:00.001+08:00

You're the reason why I smile.Hehe. (Zayn Malik)

But right now i dont know whether I should scream or cry. But I am simply just crying while screaming into my pillow. This is freaking ridiculous. I am getting so insecure right now. FUCKING INSECURE. Haish,at the verge of giving up.

#NP wish you were here.

I can be tough. I can be strong. But with you,its not like that at all. There's a girl that gives a shit, behind this wall. You just walk through it. I remember all those crazy things you said. You left them running through my head. You're always there you're everywhere but right now I wish you were here. All those crazy things we did. Didn't think about it just went with it. You're always there. You're everywhere but right now i wish you were here.

Adios.

My heart's a stereo,it beats for you so listen close.

2011-10-23T22:33:00.001+08:00

Hello. I am freaking out right now but I just can't study.This is so freaking stupid. I am scared for my Social Studies and Chemistry Paper. I am not so nervous for Physics,History,Maths,English,Malay and Pure Geography. Damn it. I am freaking out. Damn damn damn.

Haish,whatever. I found my prom dress already. Yeay me. And yeah,cant wait to get prom Makeup with my girls. Haish,i miss you.

Khairul Anwar,its been a long time since we texted. You really meant it huh?When you said you wanted me to chase after what i really want and to not talk much to you. Cause you don't want people to think wrongly about me and you. Haish. I just hope that you are okay.

Stomach Ache is Killing me

2011-10-23T17:33:00.001+08:00

So yeah,what's up. It's English paper tomorrow. Yeay me. Haish,i have faith in myself but I'm just scared i have a panic attack halfway through.LOL. May God be with me. Amin.

It's going to be 14th November soon. Yeay,we can do this! I can't wait for that day,GOODNESS. HAHAHAHA.

Wish you were here.

2011-10-22T21:23:00.000+08:00

Don't Judge.LOL.

I was bored and lonely at home.

Can't blame me,whoops.Haha.

Dude,you never fail to make me smile.Each day,just by one text.Haha,i sound so corny.LOL.KK,i shall stop. Hmmm,I'm at number 10 today,what should i write.Hmmm, I'll think about it.But i for sure know what the last one is going to be. Haha.

Anw, I actually, honestly want to be a model too.Whooops,but i dont have the body.For real bro. LOL. Small boobs and fat tighs. Big nono. Gotta burn those fats and do something bout the boobs,no way I'm gonna go for plastic surgery,it's againt my religion. Okay,adios.

Polka Dots

2011-10-22T18:36:00.001+08:00

Today went to school for English consultation at 1pm.But I reached school at 12pm thinking Jarren would be there,but he wasn't. LOL. So he reached school at 12.35pm.Then we bought Miss N lunch and we bumped into Bone,Weilin. Hehe.

I swear today was the most productive English lesson in my life. It was fun and I had faith in myself.I can do this.My classmates can do it.We will all get through. Yeay us. Haha.

I am happy with the way we are now. I swear you didn't fail to make me laugh today and also yesterday. Texted you till around 2.50am yesterday. Worth it though. Haha,Thank you,if you're reading this. MICKEY MOUSE!

Say that you love me.

2011-10-22T00:18:00.000+08:00

Hey hey hey. Today is not a good day. But i am just glad that we are back to okay:) hehe. Not gonna give up nor back down.

I am very sorry Mister R?

2011-10-20T22:51:00.000+08:00

I hate today so fucking much.

If it wasn't for you I'd be nothing.

2011-10-19T23:26:00.000+08:00

It's us next,this year,yes 2011.

Waterboy.

2011-10-19T20:49:00.001+08:00

I LOVE NUTELLA.

First O level paper tmr.Wish me luck guys! I really need it. I promise you that I will blog much more nicer stuff straight after O's.Hehe,there will be more pictures and more content.HEHE. And all the best to all O level candidates in Singapore.

Please don't have somebody waiting on you

2011-10-19T09:48:00.001+08:00

Adios,i'm off to school now:)

You can't stop the beat

2011-10-18T23:10:00.001+08:00

So yeah,I have this stupid fever and its getting on my nerves.I only did one and half essays-____- so bloody pissed and there is pure geography mock exam this saturday. Haishhh,why WHY WHY?! I can go insane.14 November can you please come earlier and at the same time,O's please be nice to me pretty please? Amin.

And Zayn,will you ever reply my tweet? LOL.

2011-10-18T02:57:00.000+08:00

Hey Handsome. You're my inspiration.

2011-10-18T00:00:00.000+08:00

What's up.Not gonna blog emotional stuff today. Cause I have to remain optimistic.So...Anw,the dude in the photo above is my AMAZING History Teacher. I have this History Mock Examination that I have to sit for on Friday and i dont wish to let him down because he really have faith in me. I really want to get an A1/A2 for combined humans. I CAN DO THIS. I've been putting in LOTS of effort for history welll,not much for SS but I'll work on it,HEHE. KK adios.

#5 today

2011-10-17T00:31:00.002+08:00

stupid fever.

2011-10-15T01:42:00.000+08:00

today is gonna be a bad day.

2011-10-15T00:22:00.000+08:00

I always never do things right? In your eyes I was a mistake?Maybe giving birth to me was a mistake too.I have somewhere else to run now. Nobody knows,well except for one person.But ohwell. I really feel like running now.Haishhh.

2011-10-14T23:13:00.000+08:00

I feel so insulted sometimes.Haishhh. What to do right? K adios. No faith in tmr's geography paper,serious.I really didnt study.I really didnt.I hate human geography.BOHOO.

Damn,each day I like you even more.Whooops.

2011-10-13T20:16:00.002+08:00

Went to Queensway today to collect our Class Tee Shirt.It is AMAZAYN. Hehe,shall upload the pics tmr.Anw,went to Lot 1 today with Eiyzy and each of us did a chain,she did one which says Ahn Jae*****(idk how to spell his name) and i did 'Zayn Malik' SO CUTE. I am in love with it.

ANW,the picture above is taken by Fard.She took it when i was asleep in the bus. What am I to do....I was EXHAUSTED. HEEEEEE:) Adios. Social Studies Mock Exam TMR,wish me LUCK. Love you guys.

HASTALAVISTA.

2011-10-13T00:55:00.000+08:00

He makes my darkest day goes bright.He is my inspiration.He never fails to put a smile on my face.But the saddest thing to me is that,i dont think that he even knows that I exist on Earth.One day,just one day,I hope Zayn Malik replies one of my tweets.Either him or any other 1D member. Amin. Hehe.

So yeah,today went to smoochiez,got my MAC eyeshadow that i am going to wear from prom.YEAY.Its a gorgeous purplish colour with some sparkles in it.Can't wait till my major exams are over. Bismillah,i can do this.AMIN.

Goodnight.

Hmmmm,Mister R? lolx.

2011-10-12T21:39:00.000+08:00

I get so pissed off easily nowadays,i really am panicking about my O's. I am screwed.Big time,studied so hard for physics and all i get it this crap.FUCKER. Urgh,stupid brain.Why wont you work?!

2011-10-12T00:17:00.000+08:00

He is a 4 year old kid who is freaking adorable. BUT he is freaking pervetic to trhe maximum. hahaha. he did loads of things to me;peeing on me,rubbing his private part on me,kissing my private part. LOL. Miss himand his nonsense already. haha.

and i miss you more.

2011-10-10T22:23:00.001+08:00

Today was a great day. Went to school to study.And then went to Fatin's house,made a fool out of myself there.HAHA.Stupid thing.And then made our way to Macdonalds to meet Nurul,Rizan and Syahmi.I studied physics,the rest studied Geography and POA.Ate.Fard did a stupid thing.Haha.And yeah,went home with Rizan. HE INSISTED THAT WE TOOK THE MRT AND SO I agreed.Oh well,it was an okay ride though.

Anw,you looked amazing.

2011-10-10T01:26:00.001+08:00

Today was a fairytale.

The smile that you put on my face is still there.Thank you. I guess i was really enchanted to meet you. Hehe.

So yeah,what happened today was FUN.I meant it.Haha.

1: Went to Lot 1 library to study with Ika,Jibby and Yat.Studied until around 4plus and then we went to KFC to eat.I ate the *something* ultimate box,LOL.

2:Went back home to grab my sanitary pad cause I am having my period and yeahhhh. I washed my face brushed my teeth and sprayed on Kate Moss perfume and headed out and changed my bag and poped on some mascara.HEHE.

3:Went to meet Eiyzy and Fard and we studied at JCP till we got chased out by this Indian lady which said some stuff which didnt make any sense. Fuck you_|_

4:Then we went to Frontier Library to study for awhile and lectured Eiyzy.

5:Then made my way to Limbang Area there to meet Rizan to teach him some physics. The place so creepy sia. LOL. But it was fun.Reached home at 2335. It was worth it.

Hastaladodo.

2011-10-08T23:30:00.000+08:00

Listening to Can I have This Dance-HSM3.

Cant wait for Prom.HEHE. Today is welll...A very unplanned day. Had lunch with Rahej,Mosy and Bone.It was fun. Hhaha,I really enjoyed myself. And we had fun at Bangla park too:) But my menses ruined the fun:( damn~

2011-10-08T00:07:00.000+08:00

Plan failed.I can never forget you.Tried to do so for almost a year but i still can't. Damn it. Why is it so hard? What do you have special in you? I guess you are just special to me.

Haniss,i dont hate you.Yes,i used to.But these few months i dont hate you. I really mean it when i said this.I really treasure you. I dont want us to end up this way,we can sort things out but still its gonna be awkward,but still i would really like to say sorry to you.I am sorry,very sorry.

2011-10-07T00:14:00.000+08:00

Nothing Happened,
Memories burned,
Memories killed,
Hearts filled,

With pain,
No gain,
No nothing,
A single wing,

To fly,
Up in the sky,
To be free,
To be me,

forget you,
yes you,
go away,
I say,

I'll miss you,
I really do,
sorry but i have to,
i just cant face you.

2011-10-06T23:55:00.000+08:00

Friday is coming up in a few minutes time.Everything is going to be over.I will stop contacting you.I will delete your number,i know it wont help cause apparently i memorized it and yeah,i shall DELETE it from inside of my brain.And i shall unfollow you from twitter and delete you from facebook. In other words delete you from my life.You're the first guy that ever made me felt this way.I like you a lot,yes I do.Sometimes I think of you and i smile to myself.But right now,I have to sacrifice my happiness for something else,as always.But it doesnt really matter.Im used to it.I told myself since last year to move on.But i just cant.I BLOODY CANT. I told people i was over it,but no.I wasnt. And right now,im cancelling you out of my life.It is made easier cause I have graduated already and we wont be seeing each other much,i really am going to miss you.I will avoid you at all cost.And lastly,i **** you. Goodbye.

2011-10-05T23:55:00.002+08:00

Friday's gonna come. Everything is going to be over.

2011-10-04T23:29:00.001+08:00

I want to do a cover on David Archuleta's Hit in 2009,Crush. I shall do it tomorrow.Well today is an okay day. Started out badly cause i was crying like an idiot during midnight.And i woke up late for schoooolll and it was raining damn heavily,lucky dad could send me to school.Love you so much.

Gosh,Friday is coming.God help me out,Amin. And dude,i know you like me but what you tweeted yesterday really hurt the fuck out of me,i was crying like a retard an idiot a fool. I was curled up in a corner and all i could think about was the photo and what you tweeted.:( bohooo.

2011-10-04T00:21:00.000+08:00

I cant believe that I am actually crying now.I really dont know why. But the pain in my heart hurts to the MAXIMUM.#np turning tables.

If you only knew how much i loved you.How long that I loved you.How long i do not have the guts to tell you.I feel like a fucking idiot.I am sobbing like a fool an idiot,a fucking moron.As all these tears hit the ground,i hust myself even more...

Friday it's either I'll tell you or not...But most probably no. I wont be seeing you after friday anymore.From there i will forget you,you wont ever exist in my life.I dont wanna be hurt like how i am right now. I cant have anything to distract me now from my O's.Cause apparently i dont a mean a thing to you but she does....

Why would you even like me right? Wtf am i saying? I am so hurt right now.

If you think that i am attracting attention,this is my motherfucking blog.If you want to think that way,if you're a girl i hope you die.If you're a boy i hope you die too. Fuck you all.

To my faithful readers,I really hope you understand,love you guys.